Let’s Talk About Jobs

Hello readers! How has your Monday been? Did you have a rough day? Google cute baby animals to help you smile 🙂

Okay, so now that you feel better, let’s talk about work (Muhahaha! Emotional roller coasters FTW). So I was a late to job person because I always put everything into school. I was 19 when I had my first job, as a summer middle school custodian. It was really humbling and made me want to work even harder at school! Then, I went into the work of retail, aka Soul Crushing Slave Labor. My saving grace was when I was a senior in college and got to be a tutor at my school’s Writing Center. I loved it so much. Helping students work on their papers and see them improve was AWESOME! Unfortunately, when I graduated I couldn’t work there anymore as it was a student position. I had a short academic specialist position for 5 weeks, but it was only seasonal.

Since then, I’ve been unemployed. I know what you’re thinking. Holly, what are you? Too good for a job because you have a fancy paper with your name on it? What are you? A mooching, lazy millennial? Believe it or not, it’s not that. I actually was hit with severe anemia and gastritis at the same time and was in the hospital, needed a blood transfusion, and was to every doctor you can imagine. I’ve been getting better slowly, very slowly. I had weeks where I couldn’t leave the house and days where I couldn’t even shower; it was too much. I now have more good days than bad, but it’s better a rough road.

In October, I plan to really job hunt, but I’ve been looking around now. What a struggle! How can jobs expect you to have so much experience? I know they expect internships, but when you worked all through school like I did, there just wasn’t time. I don’t know if I’m looking in the wrong places, but so many jobs want so much experience, but if I can’t get a job in the field, how do I get experience?! It’s a crazy cycle! I’m not sure what I will do. I know I don’t want to go back to retail, but I will if I have to. I just hope my health stays up because retail is surprisingly physical. I want to try to get into office work, but I have never worked in an office, so I don’t know how it will be. I’m going to need go try. I need income and mental sanity, being in the house all the time messes with you. I hope I can get something.

To be honest, I’m afraid to apply for any jobs because I’m afraid I’ll get sick again. I know it’s mostly anxiety, but there is a possibility since these conditions don’t really get better, it’s more managing it. I’m doing the best I can, but I just don’t know. I hope this doesn’t sound too jumbled. My brain feels jumbled. I’m gonna stop here.

Sorry if this got a little sad, I hope you all have a great night! Keep being you!

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Honor the 9/11 Victims

Hello Readers,

I’m not going to make an official post for today as I ask you take time to remember and commemorate the victims of the September 11, 2011 terrorist attacks. Don’t think of this day with hate or scorn, try to remember how united the country became and all the love that came from this horrible event.

Please make it a point to do a random act of kindness today to honor the lives of the victims.

Be kind out there guys. See you tomorrow.

Why are Friends so Hard to Make in Your 20s?

Hello Readers! I’m overjoyed to see even more of you! Thank you for the support 🙂 Please comment on my posts; I need the feedback to make my blog better for you. A writer is nothing without her audience!

Ok so here’s the topic of the day – Friends *cue Friends theme song* Maybe it’s just me, but I’ve never been good with friends. Let me get this straight, I’m not a mean person or a bully, it’s just that it always seems like, no matter if it was high school or college, I always care more about the friendship than others. I’ve had a few exceptions, but for the most part I think I’m meant to be more of an acquaintance than a friend.

To add to this curse, I am also super shy, like can’t even turn to the kid in class to ask how the quiz was shy. I never even went to a college party or bar hopping. It’s never been me. I’m more of a let’s play board games, go to art museums, and make snores person lol. Thankfully, when I was a junior in college, I got into my first honor society which opened doors for acquaintances and allowed me to open up a bit. However, where do I go from here now? High school friends are long gone, college acquaintances and I speak every now and then, but honestly where do I go for friends now? There are no adult clubs, (upon a quick reread, this does not sound the way I wanted. . .) unless I run the risk of being murdered on Craigslist, all because I wanted to meet up and talk about Harry Potter.

Where do people in their 20s go to make friends after college? Where is the Tinder for friendship?

Holly, 23

Looking for Harry Potter marathon, road trip, Friendsgiving pals that I can be my nerdy self with!

Despite my forever alone status, I know this is a common issue with people in my age bracket. Or at least I think it is. . . Maybe it is just me? I don’t know. Where are majority of your friends from? School? Work? Neighbors? Am I just doing something wrong?

Is making friends in the 20s, away from school an issue or am I just in my own head?

Sleeping is the Enemy

And apparently so is blogging, read on to find out.

Hello readers! How is your day? If you had a good one, was it from a good night’s sleep? I’m not great at those so I wouldn’t know.

While I do not, I repeat and will probably forever say it, do NOT miss college, I miss having a routine to follow. After not having school or work to keep me on a set schedule and give me reasons to be awake at a certain time, my sleeping schedule has been a mess. I stay up until wee hours of the morning and sleep until 10 am.  I guess it’s a good sign I want structure, maybe I’m not failing as bad at adulthood as I think? (Still lives with parents, has no job, and crumbling student debt, Nope I’m still failing lol) I will save the topic of jobs for its own post because it’s a different beast all its own.

Back to sleep (*Spongebob narrator voice* Three hours later…) ((By the way, if you follow my blog, you must be able to deal with bad jokes, they are just a part of me, I am on like Dad Level 17, despite being an extremely single 23 year old woman with no children lol.)) Basically, I fall asleep during the day because I crash at like the 5 o’clock mark. It’s usually thirty minutes to an hour, but it throws off everything. Pro-Tip: I read somewhere you shouldn’t nap after 4 pm because it messes with your nighttime sleep directly. Ahhh, this topic isn’t working! I wouldn’t read me. I need a change. That’s right, I’m changing topics right in the middle of my typing!

Readers, you and I have to have a talk. I apologize for how often I go off on tangents or don’t make sense. I babble on for a while because I still don’t have a direction for this blog. I’m basically just going off what my little brain comes up with day by day. I want it to come off as natural feedback is a recent college graduate with no direction in life, but it might just seem sporadic and annoying. I’ll try to work on that. I want us to be friends here. I want people to read my words, hell, that’s the whole reason I majored in Writing. All I can say is hey, I’m new to the blogging thing, away from the assignments I was given in the classroom.

I’m in the process of making the difficult transition from the classroom to the real world and it’s chaotic and insane, but I’m still happy you’re taking it with me readers. Please hang in there; we will make it through together. If you won’t give up on me, I won’t give up on you.

Remember to keep on being you, unless you’re a jerk. Until next time 🙂

Did I Choose the Write Major?

Hello everyone! Holly here, as always :). I was trying to think what to post about today and of course, nothing mind blowing came to me. Woo hoo! So here’s my rambled thoughts. I have been thinking lately, do I choose the right major? I mentioned last time how I switched from Education because I hated it. However, would it have been smarter for me to have stuck with the “more stable” path even though I hated it? When I had my mental break down, sophomore year when I was in the schools and couldn’t imagine spending my life this way, my mom told me, “Do you think anyone is really happy with their jobs? No, that’s why it’s called work.” I don’t know. I just thought. Why spend all this time, money, and energy into something I didn’t love? I switched to the Writing program, and from my first class Writing 2020, I knew I had found my people. Others thought the same way I did, liked what I did, and we all seemed to be on the same wavelength. The more writers I met, the more accepted I felt. I really found my niche in writing, and having people read my work and feel affected by it made me happy in a way I never felt before.

I will admit, I never liked the act of writing, but I really loved the feeling of having just written. It is a high I can compare to few things other. However, as I sit here, well lie as its 12:48 am and I’m admittedly writing this for my bed, I can’t help but think were all my years of writing A+ essays, knowing the one and outs of grammar (I’m more lax on here), memorizing so many vocabulary words, and creating innumerable stories for nothing? I don’t know the next step to take and it’s frustrating. I can’t just sit around and wait for a publishing house to pick up my book. I need to make money with my love of the written word, but I don’t know how.

Maybe I didn’t pick the wrong major, I just can’t see my path for what to do with it yet. I’m on that now.

I’m sorry this wasn’t entertaining and more self introspective, so for getting to the end, enjoy some terrible jokes!

What do you say to comfort a crying English major? – There, their, they’re

Two guys walk into a bar. Man, you think the second guy would have seen it.

My life. (Haha I’m hilarious.)

 

No laughs? Tough crowd. See ya next time, and remember to keep on being you 🙂

I Can’t Be the Only One!

Hello reader! First off, let me tell you, you are so awesome and I hope you are having a great day! Second, thanks for clicking on my blog! While this blog looks bare now, let me tell you, I am pretty optimistic, probably too optimistic, that it will be filled with my thoughts as the days go on. To introduce myself, my name is Holly and I just (literally 3 months ago) graduated college Summa Cum Laude. With a title like that, you’d think I’d have my life together, but that is not the case at all. I literally have no idea what I am doing with my life. These past 19 years, from pre-k to college, have been school, school, school. My main prize has always been the diploma. Now I have it, and I’m like now what? My parents are saying grad school, but my heart says jail (10 points to you if you get the reference!). Basically, I can’t see myself studying something because I don’t know what I want to do.

 

“But Holly,” you ask, “however could you graduate college without thinking of what you wanted to do after?” Yeah, I beat myself about that a lot. I went in to my undergrad career thinking I wanted to be an English teacher, but when I actually got into the classrooms, I hated it. I then switched to English with a Concentration in Writing. I had always been good at writing, so it just seemed like the next logical step. Real life hit me in the face though. Trying to become a writer is really hard, and now I have no idea what I’m doing. I’ve created this blog as a way to organize my thoughts, be entertaining, and hopefully get my life together! It’s a tall order, but I’m gonna try! I don’t know how often I will be updating this blog, but I will try at least 3 times a week! Sounds like a plan? Hope to see you again, and keep on being you, unless you are a jerk, than be someone nice :)!