Hello readers! How has your Monday been? Did you have a rough day? Google cute baby animals to help you smile 🙂
Okay, so now that you feel better, let’s talk about work (Muhahaha! Emotional roller coasters FTW). So I was a late to job person because I always put everything into school. I was 19 when I had my first job, as a summer middle school custodian. It was really humbling and made me want to work even harder at school! Then, I went into the work of retail, aka Soul Crushing Slave Labor. My saving grace was when I was a senior in college and got to be a tutor at my school’s Writing Center. I loved it so much. Helping students work on their papers and see them improve was AWESOME! Unfortunately, when I graduated I couldn’t work there anymore as it was a student position. I had a short academic specialist position for 5 weeks, but it was only seasonal.
Since then, I’ve been unemployed. I know what you’re thinking. Holly, what are you? Too good for a job because you have a fancy paper with your name on it? What are you? A mooching, lazy millennial? Believe it or not, it’s not that. I actually was hit with severe anemia and gastritis at the same time and was in the hospital, needed a blood transfusion, and was to every doctor you can imagine. I’ve been getting better slowly, very slowly. I had weeks where I couldn’t leave the house and days where I couldn’t even shower; it was too much. I now have more good days than bad, but it’s better a rough road.
In October, I plan to really job hunt, but I’ve been looking around now. What a struggle! How can jobs expect you to have so much experience? I know they expect internships, but when you worked all through school like I did, there just wasn’t time. I don’t know if I’m looking in the wrong places, but so many jobs want so much experience, but if I can’t get a job in the field, how do I get experience?! It’s a crazy cycle! I’m not sure what I will do. I know I don’t want to go back to retail, but I will if I have to. I just hope my health stays up because retail is surprisingly physical. I want to try to get into office work, but I have never worked in an office, so I don’t know how it will be. I’m going to need go try. I need income and mental sanity, being in the house all the time messes with you. I hope I can get something.
To be honest, I’m afraid to apply for any jobs because I’m afraid I’ll get sick again. I know it’s mostly anxiety, but there is a possibility since these conditions don’t really get better, it’s more managing it. I’m doing the best I can, but I just don’t know. I hope this doesn’t sound too jumbled. My brain feels jumbled. I’m gonna stop here.
Sorry if this got a little sad, I hope you all have a great night! Keep being you!